WARNING – long post ahead:
As many people may or may not know, after competing in 5 comps within 3 months, my body suffered from excessive cortisol and adrenal fatigue.
I was struggling to stay lean, my sleep patterns were off, my gut health was suffering…
Don’t get me wrong – I absolutely LOVED comp prep! And I was ready to do it all over again – aiming to get on stage at the ICN Fitness Show in October 2017.
But when Reece told me that I wasn’t ready, I almost felt rebellious. I mean, I’ve done 5 comps, who says I can’t do it again?
So I discontinued my training with Reece. (By the way, have you seen his waiting list?! People were literally queuing up to train with him, and I gave up my spot just like that!)
They call him the White Wizard for a reason.
It’s not just about the results he get, but how he gets them.
When I was comp prepping with Reece, I viewed food as fuel for my workouts and nourishment for my body. I never felt restricted, I LOVED my training, and I was able to follow my plan without feeling like I was ‘missing out’ on anything.
Something that apparently many people don’t get the luxury of experiencing while comp prepping!
I learnt that the hard way.
Without Reece’s guidance and accountability, I started viewing food as an outlet for my emotions.
I was no longer stage-lean.
I was no longer complimented for my looks.
And whatever I ate made me bloated and look 5 months pregnant.
I thought, “Screw it. If I get bloated from eating chicken and vegetables, and burgers and chips, why bother with the chicken and vegetables anyway?”
Not saying that I was eating burgers and chips all day every day, but I wasn’t in the right frame of mind. I was choosing foods that I ‘thought would make me feel good, but I actually felt worse afterwards.
There was a period of time where if you asked me if I was okay, I would’ve said yes and changed the subject. But if you looked me in the eye and asked again, I would just burst into tears.
Looking back, stopping my training with Reece was probably the worst mistake I could’ve made.
Not the burgers or chips, not the decision to compete again in 2017.
I missed training with Reece.
I realised when I said I loved comp prepping, I meant comp prepping with Reece – something I took for granted.
My husband, Pat, advised me to go back to Reece. He trains with Reece himself, and know what an amazing trainer Reece is.
I texted him immediately, asking if I could train with him, and being the gentle, understanding person that he is, he said yes.
With Reece and Kristine’s help, I focused on improving my sleep, my gut health, and my relationship with myself.
Most importantly, I started bringing back elements in my life that used to empower me. Whether it be some down time reading a good book, finding time for my family and friends, or a quiet night in where I tuned in for some ‘me’ time.
I even got back from spending 2 weeks resetting my body and mind with my ever supportive and encouraging partner in Vanuatu with nothing but swimming, food and sunshine to worry about.
To top it all off, I just started my new role at Enterprise Fitness – one of the best places to work at! Suddenly, I was spending most of my time at Enterprise, surrounded by people who had the same values as me – to be healthy, happy and the best versions of themselves!
Now as I reflect over the past year, I can genuinely say that I have no regrets and that I am proud at myself for what I’ve achieved (with the help of a few very important people – you know who you are!)
At the start of this year before my comps, I told myself I wouldn’t be one of those girls who lost 20 kilos to get on stage, and then blew up immediately after. Guess what? That’s exactly what I did.
But you know what? I’m okay with that. I can look back and laugh at my mistakes now – because I have learnt so much. I know it’s cliche but I really have, and I have learnt so much about my body with my amazing coach aka White Wizard.
He probably doesn’t understand how much he has actually taught me mentally and changed how I look at things. Or maybe he does but he’s much too humble. Either way I’m super happy with where I am and it has taken me a long time (well feels like ages anyway) to admit that.
2018 Season B is what I’m working towards now. Yes, I know that’s about a year to go, but I’m okay with that. If my body happens to respond sooner, great, but I know now that there’s no pressure.
Yes, we all place lots of pressure in ourselves and for what?
I absolutely LOVE comp prepping, and it’s the journey, not destination that matters most.
Take the time to enjoy every part of the process, make it your lifestyle, learn from mistakes and use it to your advantage. I know exactly where I want to go and what I need to do to get there.
You’ll be hearing/seeing a lot about my journey and experiences. But I’ll be documenting this for myself.
Because the only person that holds me accountable is me.
And I’m the only one in my way. So I’m going to get out of my own way and this
starts now. Not tomorrow, not next week but right now.
Future – I look forward to what you bring me!
- “I Love The Honesty Here”
- Enterprise Fitness at the ICN Victorian National Titles!
- Congratulations To The First Ever ICN Fitness Pro Model!